as if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain. therell be no last chance to promise to never mess it up again. just the sweet pain of watching your back as you walk as im watching you walk away….its a cruel thing youll never know all the ways i tried. its a hard thing faking a smile when i feel like im falling apart inside. and now youre gone its like an echo in my head and i remember every word you said.  

i wish i could just destroy every single fucking emotion inside of me. or just disappear for a while. that could work too. fucking give up on life.